Self Demolishes, Yet I Am Still Awake

'Self Demolishes, Yet I Am Still Awake' moves through a body shaped by repetition and inheritance.

The performance unfolds in cycles of collapse and return. The body gives way, pauses, gathers itself, then begins again. No gesture fully resolves.

Breath does not remain steady. It deepens, accelerates, slips out of control. At times it feels too much, at others not enough. The body attempts to regulate itself, but cannot fully settle.

A lace veil, digitally translated from the artist’s grandmother’s pattern and laser-cut, covers the body. The pattern remains, but its material has shifted; inherited, but no longer intact. It obscures the face, softening visibility while holding the body in place.

The body moves within patterns that feel already known, already lived. What appears as exhaustion is also continuation.

There is no clear moment of release. Instead, the body remains within the act of undoing; repeating, holding, and returning.

What persists is not stability, but staying; a body that continues, even as it begins to lose control.